You never know when and where you might meet someone who will touch your heart. I have been working at the school for sometime now, nearly six months. I really enjoy it. Some days are harder than others and sometimes it is overwhelming. Lately I have been questioning whether or not I would stay on next year as a Para-Professional. The job is very rewarding, yet it has its downside. Cafeteria Duty!!! For 2 hours and 25 minutes everyday, I walk circles around the cafeteria. Our job (mine and 2 other Para's) is to keep the cafeteria at a dull roar, to make sure they are in a safe eating environment. Basically Babysitting, so the teachers can have a very short period of time to themselves. While we on the other hand have about 140 students in the cafeteria at a minimum. Here are just a handful of the things kids raise their hands for on any given day.
1. Condiments
2. Spork
3. Tattling (Big Pet Peeve)
4. "Can I go to the Bathroom"
5. "I don't feel well!"
We literally walk 7 miles a day while working! My pedometer says so!
Why am I telling you all this, well it all started last week. I just started feeling run down. Very, Very exhausted. My body aches and you would think after 6 months of this I would be good by now, but it seemed to be getting harder. My voice started getting hoarse. I told my husband "I am just not sure if I can do this for a whole year." My blood pressure has been on the high side and I just don't want to hurt myself for the stress of a job. With this all being said let me share this. I am the only Para that stays in the cafeteria the whole 2 hours and 25 minutes. My husband decided to do a little research on the job and he found that what I do everyday is comparable to pushing a lawnmower for 2 hours +. The sound level is that intense. This is just one of the many stress factors that come with cafeteria duty.
Anyway, back to where I was going! The other day someone just shared a smile and asked how I was doing. I am not sure if it was written on my face how exhausted I am or if they were just being friendly but for what ever reason they asked. Which opened a door to a few conversations. I find it amazing that God will send his people to each other. When someone is in need he sends you exactly who you need. Even if it is just to recognize that you are weary. From talking to one personal conversation led me in another direction to another co-worker and she shared an amazing story with me. I am still in awe. It amazes me that some of the people I work with are so strong in the lord, and as I type this I am taken back to last week a conversation I had with my husband about how so many teachers don't believe in GOD. I don't bring it to work with me. Maybe it is a comfort thing. I say prayers and praises to God throughout the day, like most other Christians, but sometimes I feel closed in by the closed minded people. Just because I claim to be a Christian doesn't mean I am a radical who will shove it down your throat and be all holier than thou. In my opinion it means when you are struggling I will pray for you, when you are in need I will try to help you. That is what good people do and I don't think you have to be a Christian to be a good person. I guarantee if you watch me long enough you will see me stumble and even fall. No human being is perfect. Therefore none of us should be judging of others.
So today after all of the stress and then the uplifting moments, I was told as of right now, this very moment we 3 Para's will have our jobs next year. I felt excited. I feel privileged to have a job. I feel blessed to have some of the most awesome co-workers. Of course, having a job could change so many things. Where we decide to move, school choices, and so much more. So for those of you reading, say a prayer, or send happy thoughts that the next 10 months will be a smooth process! As always thanks for reading my late night thoughts!
PS.
There is something weighing heavy on my heart tonight. Please pray for guidance for me.
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