No Deployment!

There are days when being a Navy Wife seems overwhelming. The hurry up and waiting gets to you after awhile. It happens even when you don't realize it. Mike went on what we thought was his last deployment nearly 18 months ago. One day while at work he found that he had been extended. Not by being told, but by looking on the Internet. Some of the frustrating ways the Military handles things. The extention meant that Mike would be going on deployment. It made me cringe at the thought of him leaving again. The last deployment was the worst one I had ever dealt with. Reflecting on that I wasn't sure if I could make it through another. So knowing it was the last one helped me to pull threw it.

Well when Mike found out he was extended I felt like I was punched in my stomach, why? What was God's purpose in sending him away again when his deployments were all done? I felt defeated. Already stressing about how I was gonna make it 6 months.

So Mike was looking at the req's the other day (fancy word for orders coming out) He looked at AO orders and found that the command down the street was looking for an AO1 Of course he was frustrated because those orders could have been his, had he not been extended. Mike decided to go down and talk to the command and talk to the chief and gunner. They wanted to know if his current command would let him go. So Mike spoke with his gunner and he started speaking with his current command to see if they would be willing to release him from that extension. Well that command saw no problem with that and the paperwork has been filed. With everything signed off on Mike should be hearing something soon. So what does this all mean? It basically means that Mike will be going to that new command and his transfer date will be in December and the greatest part of all NO DEPLOYMENT! There are days when my emotions get the best of me. I am not a patient person. Being a Military spouse has tried to put me in my place but has not tamed me completely. There are days when I can't stand the waiting the not knowing the uncertainty of our future. Other days I am like a child on the night before Christmas waiting for the surprises that lie ahead.

I know Mike fought real hard for this, to be able to stay here with me and the kids. I know God laid the foundation for him and the rest was all in his hands. Why is it not easy for us to let go and let God? It was always a part of his plan and for some reason I still worry about tomorrow. Knowing what he did for our family, knowing that one day can change everything, knowing that some people might see this as "not that big of a deal." Well you try living without your better half for over 2 and a half years and tell me how well that works for you. It's not an easy task, but I would not change it in any way! Even the Bad and the Ugly