Yesterday was Mother's day. It was a nice day the sun was shining and a small breeze was in the air. I woke up to breakfast in bed and with 3 homemade cards from my girls. I read each card and with each word my heart swelled. Then started on my breakfast. After finishing up my flapjacks, my son came in with his Euphonium. He wanted to play me a song for Mother's day. Be still my heart! I love hearing him play, he is so much like his daddy. After his song was over and I wiped away my tears, I had to share with Chase just how special he is. He has always questioned why we never had another boy. Each time we found out we were having another girl he would get so upset. Even asking if we could adopt a boy. Well yesterday God opened my eyes and gave me the answer. "He only wanted me to have you!" "You are my Special boy." Don't get me wrong my girls are special to me and they are each unique in their own way. After our special moment we all went on to get dressed for church.
Church was awesome! Mike played his trumpet and I believe it was one of the most powerful, moving, songs. Standing on Holy Ground was the song and there weren't very many dry eyes in the place not to mention many people seated after that. We rose to our feet to show we truly were standing on holy ground. There was a play put on by the youth and it was very touching. The message was brought by our Pastor and it went right along with the skit and showed of a mother's love and how she would give "whatever it takes" to see her child do good, to see her child live a Godly life. Never really thinking about what she could be giving if God answered her prayers. Sometimes it takes a death, or something really tragic to bring us to God. Then sometimes God knows what we need long before we do and prayers are answered long before we knew we needed to pray them.
AS I sat in church yesterday I couldn't help but think about my dad and a set sisters in our church that lost their moms last year. I couldn't help but think of another lady who lost her daughter much to young and really never had the time to be a mother to her. She never saw her walk down the aisle or have a child. All of this led me to think of my own mom and her sister.
Let me tell you a story, seems like a fairlytale almost, actaully I would like to think it is!
It was one hot summer in California, my mom and her sister were out at the pool in the apartment complex they lived in. My mom noticed this guy, long flowy hair and handsome as ever. Looking sharpe in his tuxedo. Mom was 14 and thought "wow he must be getting married." Well it was true he was going to be in a wedding, but it wasn't his own. His brother was getting married and he was there from Florida to be the best man. After the wedding she did not see the guy for a few weeks.
They were back at the pool again and he came out to go swimming. He somehow started talking to my mom's little sister and told her how he thought mom was cute. Well mom decided to go in and get some lunch, when they went in to get lunch Laura (her sister) told her that the guy thought she was cute and my mom got kinda of nervous... I thought he got married? Well she soon found out it wasn't him but in fact was his brother that had got married and was excited to learn that he had his eye on her.
The next time my mom saw this man he would be walking over a Koi pond heading to the laundry mat and as she was watching him, he was looking at her and stepped of the bridge into the Koi pond.of course he was emabarrassed. Finally one day he got up the courage to ask her out and they went on a few dates. Mom was 14 when they met dad was 16. It was a match made in heaven. THe only problem was after dating for awhile the summer was coming to an end and the boy whom she had grown to love had to go back to Florida. She was sad but they said they would continue to keep the relationship going and they did with cards and letters and a few seldom phone calls they kept it going until my dad could not take being away from her. He decided to leave home and go to live with his brother. Their relationship grew stronger and the days turned into months. Soon it was time for his brother to leave California. He was in the Marines and was going to be stationed somewhere else. Mom and dad were so upset, they knew my mom's mom would never let him stay with them. She was a single parent raising 2 girls. They cried and talked and fell asleep on the bed.
They were awakened by her mom coming in and asking what they were doing and they both started to explain the situation. To both of theirs surprise she said yes. God said yes. God knew what the future held and he knew my mom would need a strong man by her side.
Before you knew it they were engaged to be maried and were going to Florida to get married. Her mother wouldn't make the trip because she was sick. Her mom had to sign for them to be able to get married. After they returned from the wedding my grandmother became even more ill. After running test they found she had a Tumor. It was about the size of a grapefruit. My grandmother wanted to have it removed, she decided to have surgery much to the shagrin of my mother. The surgery did not go well, her brain swelled and cause her to slip into a coma. She instantly became the guardian of her little sister. So this couple of newlyweds became parents. They soon found out they were pregnant with a baby. And as her mom laid in a coma she told her the news. Telling her she needed to hold on because she was going to be a grandmother. As I am told by my mother a tear rolled down her face. It was that connection, that single tear she shed for knowing that she would never know me that has forever touched my heart. I am not sure how long it was after that conversation my mother had with her that she passed. But I know it wasn't long.
I can't imagine never having a mother, it seems life gets harder after you get married. To never have someone to talk to and share with must have been hard on her. To not have a clue about raising a baby, and to have no one to call when times got hard or she had a question. I call my mom sometimes 20 times a day and I know it drives her crazy, but I see so many my age losing their parents and it scares me to death. Her love for and my brothers is one of the most amazing gifts we could have ever been given. How can you repay that? YOU CAN'T!!! You can only Pay it Forward! To teach your children about love and kindness. To teach them to be fair,love and hug them everyday. Love them the best you can, just the way your mother did for you!
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