This year has been an eventful one to say the least, so many highs and so many lows. I have only one regret, and that is that I let others decide my fate, I constantly try to be a friend to everyone, and I try to be a social butterfly but instead I feel like I get spun back into a coccoon. It's that feeling of not belonging in the situation, whether it be with family, friends, or even at church. Over the years I have become super sensitive to actions and reactions of others. Yet I don't know how to help myself. There are times when I feel completely surrounded by friends and loved ones and times I feel like no one is even cares. Maybe it's because I am the one who is always reaching out, it gets so tiresome.
My heart is so heavy and burdened. I can't even begin to talk about it. For now I will keep praying. I just wish I could put it all out there, the hurt, the sorrow, the burdens. I wish someone understood!
1 comment:
I read this today and thought of you and this post.
Paul wrote this to encourage believers who
feel exactly what you are describing, so my
hope is that it might encourage you too.
Galatians 6:9 "Let us not grow weary while
doing good, for in due season we shall reap
if we do not lose heart."
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