If You're Not Part of The Solution

YOU'RE A PART OF THE PROBLEM

 

A friend recently shared this on Facebook and it really made me think. What are my problem areas? Insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly expecting different results. I do insanity well! Actually it's scary how well I do it! So how can I change that, how can I change me? Well to be honest I thought I was working towards that but lately I feel like I am a drift at sea. I feel like nothing I do is conducive to the program I am working and I feel like I am losing my purpose. I feel like I am losing my desire to "work the program." It seems the harder I try the more satan attacks. I feel like I am judged more than I am appreciated. I feel forgotten. I feel like a nobody.

 

 So I guess you could say I feel like I am a part of the problem. But why is that? Maybe its because people tell me what I am and I believe it. I believe all the harmful, hurtful things they say. Then I struggle to put myself back together like humpty dumpty. There are times when I feel on top of the world and times I feel like the biggest failure. For the past year nothing could knock me down. But now I feel like I am flat on my back. I don't even want to try but I find myself doing it for the sake of others. The trust in my heart is completely broken. I feel myself shutting down more and more each day.

 

So how can I help if I am part of the problem? I just don't know right now. I feel like everyone I talk to wants me to pray about it or fix me. The one thing I have learned from the program is that we are not fixable by humans. Only God can do the fixing! So right now I feel like I am floating in a sea of hopelessness.....waiting for God to send a breeze so I can head in a better direction.

 

It's lonely out here..........