How quickly they GO!

I guess I am the only one to blame. But I am trying. I am trying to remember I serve a risen Saviour, from whom all blessings flow. As my blog only has 10 followers, I sit kinda saddened. But then I think for a minute and realize why would anyone add this to their daily reading or even weekly for that matter. I have always enjoyed writing if you have followed my blogs you know that. But I also want to be one of those people that help other people. With my wise words! :) So far I have not been successful. I am recognizing the the pattern..... that history is repeating itself and I refuse to let that happen.... again!

For So long I have belonged to a Baptist church and it was wonderful. For awhile. Then something in me changed. I craved for something more. We as a family have been searching for a church for a while now. A nice fit for us all. I am thankful that last weekend we stepped out of our comfort zone and into a really awesome church service. It was kinda a culture shock to my kids as they were use to things being a certain way in the Southern Baptist roots to which they were raised. The music was loud and yet FULL of praise. As we were walking in we (especially Mike) felt way over dressed. He was wearing nice slacks, a shirt, and tie. We walked in to find people wearing mostly comfortable clothes. From jeans to shorts. A wide variety of clothes. I am not sure who or when it was decided that people should dress up for church. Maybe out of respect for Christ who died on the cross for our sins. But what if you can't afford it? Have you watched Seinfeld? If so, have you ever watched the episode where he dates a girl who always wears the same dress over and over? There are times I felt out of place in church because I felt I had wore the same thing over and over. There were other times I felt under dressed but never over dressed. It was kinda nice. The more I thought about it I flashed forward to the next week and being able to wear something less constrictive and actually felt myself start to relax. A lot of people won't understand that and it's fine.

The spirit moved in me last Sunday. I was surprised by my reaction to the music and the words that were being preached. I was left wanting more. More praise music..... more words from the pastor..... I didn't want to leave! It's been so long since I have felt a church feeling that way. This week has passed and it's all I have been able to think about. Not to mention I read a book that has set my soul on fire. I want to live for God no one else. I am tired of living for friends who leave me wondering what I did wrong. I am tired of living for people who show little respect to anyone. Most of all I am tired of being dependent on those around me who are only holding me back from God's true glory. God meant for us to be happy in him. I have been doing my part to try and stay positive but when you are on a Journey like mine the devil is sure to cloud your judgement. But I am Thankful for a God who makes my heart full when it feels empty. I am thankful he does not give up on me when it seems all else has failed and I want to give up on me. I am anxious to see where the road leads from here. Day by Day my heart is changing and I am ready to take the steps to follow him in a life that will not lead me down a broken path.