The Perfect Life

I wish I would say that the last 119 days have been perfect. That since Mike stopped drinking things automatically changed and we became this perfect family and LIFE became perfect. But this isn't a fairly tale. It is real life. It is our life. The word I chose was Journey, because when on a Journey there are many twists and turns. The road never stays the same. Even after time passes roads you once traveled on become unrecognizable and changed. Time stops for no one and even though at times we expect the world to work for us, it often works against us.

We recently heard our pastor speak about idols and about financial freedom. Something that we thought hard about but continued to try and do things on our own. We have been struggling with finances for a long time. Living pay check to pay check. Struggling to pay our bills on time and spent more time worrying about it than we did praying about it. We had been close to not having meals some evenings but amazingly God has provided. We have pretty much hit rock bottom...... well at least in our case it has been the worse off we have ever been. As I recently began to think about it I felt blessed. 1 Blessed that we still have a roof over our head. 2 Blessed that we both still get a paycheck. 3 Blessed that we have a healthy family. So because we felt blessed to have those things we continued to live the Blessed life we thought we had, not really thinking about what God really wanted for us.

(As I write this I have reservations.... my words have been twisted before and people have taken my words and used them for their own gain or to try and harm me with being rude or hateful. So my prayer is for someone to learn from my experience or to share encouragement. Not to try and tear me down.)

I have complained to my husband for months about our vehicle. The Dodge Journey which was a joke because we had a Journey and went to Journey Church. That pain in my butt was the source of alot of fights in our home. I was stressed every month over making payments as we had gotten behind. Well all that came to an end this week as the Journey was repossessed. My first thought was relief. It was gone! Then I realized my husband may not be on the same page as me. We made some phone calls and began to realize it would not be worth getting into more debt to try and keep it. So this week we are going to get our belongings out of the Journey and say good bye. It will not solve all our problems, but it will give us a fresh start. It is a mistake we of course are learning the hard way. But accepting a hardship as a pathway to peace, is most definitely ok in my book. I am thankful for God and his plan for us. We are continuing to grow and make better choices daily. I honestly believe that our future is brighter than ever. As long as we cling to God and remember his will is what is most important for our lives we will continue on this Journey.